It has been two long years since Robin Williams has left this planet to make heaven smile. Today Susan Schneider, Robin’s widowed wife published an essay about her late husbands final months before his suicide. Susan writes a paper about Robin’s struggle with health and his Lewy body dementia misdiagnosed as Parkinson’s.
It felt like he was drowning in his symptoms, and I was drowning along with him…
Susan sheds light on Robin’s life before his passing and is a thrilling call to reality. “Robin was growing weary,” she writes. “The parkinsonian mask was ever present and his voice was weakened. His left hand tremor was continuous now and he had a slow, shuffling gait. He hated that he could not find the words he wanted in conversations. He would thrash at night and still had terrible insomnia. At times, he would find himself stuck in a frozen stance, unable to move, and frustrated when he came out of it. He was beginning to have trouble with visual and spatial abilities in the way of judging distance and depth. His loss of basic reasoning just added to his growing confusion.”
Susan shares insight in her husband’s 10-month struggle to discover the root of his neurological and physiological problems.
“Robin was losing his mind and he was aware of it,” Susan writes. “Can you imagine the pain he felt as he experienced himself disintegrating? And not from something he would ever know the name of, or understand?”
Susan notes that his conditions were so severe he kept saying that he wanted to “reboot” his brain.
The couple had been married for three years when Williams hanged himself at their home in Tiburon, Calif., on Aug. 11, 2014. The autopsy results revealed that he died from asphyxiation and suffered from Lewy body dementia, caused by protein deposits in the brain. This is a really scary reality check on what goes on in people’s lives and thoughts. We never really know what struggles people have.